My Adorable Wilder,
You are three and a half months old now and I wanted to find a peaceful moment to let you know that I am amazingly, overwhelmingly, absolutely, wholeheartedly in love with you. I mean totally head over heels for you!
Your smile is the most precious sight I can even imagine, and you use it often to melt my heart. The connection I feel with you when I nurse you is one of the most powerful forces, if not the most powerful force of love I have ever experienced. We fought together to figure out the nursing thing, it took a week or two and a lot of frustration but then we "clicked" and I am so glad to have those times throughout the day where I get to nurse you. Those moments are such peaceful beacons of calm and happiness for me. We get to steal away a few times each day to enjoy those moments together, and when you look up at me in stare into my eyes while nursing, it sends volts of love and energy down my spine and makes the hairs on the back of my neck tingle. Those are moments when I feel absolute love.
You are growing so fast! At three months old you are 14 lbs and so cute. I look at your smile and it reminds me of Lulu when she was your age, those infinately happy eyes, those cute lips that turn up at the corners...you are so overwhlemingly sweet and adorable that it can't be put into words. I feel such a desire to protect you and love you and I love spending my days staring at you. I feel a swell of pride when you catch me staring at you and when our eyes meet and you flash that brilliant smile at me. I made you. I am SO proud of that.
I am so proud to be your mom. I have to admit that I am really happy that you seem to favor me a bit. At first it was hard because when you were tiny you nursed all day every day so I never felt like I got to replenish myself with time to rest and relax. But even through the exhaustion I was always secretly excited and proud that you chose me. Each time someone else was holding you and you looked over and saw me and cried for me, I was proud that you chose me. I am proud that you love me. I love to love you. I am excited to have you and this special bond that only we share. I can't even describe our bond, there are no words. Just this unspoken truth that we love each other more than any two people could possibly love each other. We both know it, you convey that to me each time you smile at me. I love cuddling up to you each day. I love to smell your sweet baby skin. I love to kiss your full cheeks. I love to hear your belly laugh...that joy reminds me of how fantastic my world is.
I am so thankful to have you and to be your mom. I am so in love with you. I know I sound like a blabbering idiot, but I am. That's what you do to me. I can't even compose myself because I love you THAT much. I can't wait to enjoy each day with you and I look forward to watching you grow up to be a man of strength, love, integrity and pride.
You will be such a great man some day, I feel it in every cell of my body.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
My Precious Allura; March 12, 2009
My Precious Allura,
How time has flown! You are now 21, almost 22 months old! I have relished the opportunity to watch you grown from an infant with insurmountable strength and will, to a precious baby with a smile that could melt the Artic, to the adorable toddler that you are with an amazing curiousity and zest to learn. You have an amazing vocabulary and you enjoy going through a "roll call" and naming everyone in the room multiple times a day. When we are home you start pointing and naming, "Nana, Mama, Dada, Re-rah (Roxy), Ree Ree (Reo), Ray, Sasha, Wah-wah (Wilder)...I think it gives you a sense of security and pride to name everyone in the room as a way to remind yourself of the people that love you and love to lavish attention on you.
You have grown into such an amazing child. You run wildly, you dance often and you speak well. You love to ask "wasssah?" and point to things so that I can give you the term/name for it and help to expand your world.
You have welcomed your beautiful little brother with an overwhelming abundance of grace, positivity and love and I never doubted for a moment that you would see him as a fantastic addition to your life. He is 3 months old now and loves to stare at you while you play and dance and move thoroughout the room like a beautiful tornado. You bring a smile to his face hundreds of times a day. You love to lean on him and hug him and get in his face to kiss him...you also love to scream and startle him (silly girl!) but it is so clear to me that you love your brother and I am so happy for that. I hope that you grow up to be his closest friend so that you both can face the world with each other's strength and support.
I am so thankful to be able to enjoy each day with both of you. Now that I am no longer working things have been very different. No more daycare, it's just me and you and Wilder and I couldn't be more thankful for every day as your mom.
Being a mom to both of you is a more joyfilled, and pride-filled job than any I have ever worked before. I am SO proud of the little girl that you are. SO PROUD. You are this precious little mass of blonde hair, assertiveness, curiousity, love and energy. I am eager to watch you continue to grow and gain even stronger speaking skills so that we experience this big and crazy workld together.
Some of the words you use often:
ce-ro (cereal)
juice
no!
down Ray!
num-num
nigh-night
tee-tee (cookie)
ta-dee (taggy, your special lovey/blanket thing)
uppy (up)
Meema (Grandma W)
Boppa (Grandpa W)
Amy
ho-ho-eh-ya (Elmo's Christmas DVD)
I nee num-num (I'm hungry)
ice seem (ice cream)
pee-ya (pizza)
nana (banana)
appa (apple)
0h (orange food/color)
puh-pow (purple)
re (red)
white
booh (book)
These are just the words you use most often (off the top of my head). Your vocabulary goes well beyond these newer words. You are recognizing colors like orange, purple and white. You can count (1,2,3,8,9,10) and you can do your ABC's (a,b,c,d,e). You can CLIMB and do you ever! You love to climb the chair to access the computer desk. You love to climb on the furniture. You climb everywhere~ you love to go to playgroups and indoor playgrounds to run and play with balls and climb on play structures. You have been wonderful about allowing me to style your hair now, though you don't particularily enjoy it. You enjoy painting and using crayons. You grab pens that we leave out and color on every piece of paper you can find. You love to interact with the dogs (who have become your pseudo play friends) and you love to dump your toys out of the baskets.
You are growing up so fast, hopefully I can update this with the amazing things you learn and do as a way to keep record of your amazing life.
I love you so much Miss Lulu. You and your brother are such amazing and powerful forces in my life. You make me wish I could fix the world and give you a utopia to make your way within. You both offer me such joy and elation and I am so proud to be your mom and happy to have you both in my life. I feel ferocious amounts of love for you both~
How time has flown! You are now 21, almost 22 months old! I have relished the opportunity to watch you grown from an infant with insurmountable strength and will, to a precious baby with a smile that could melt the Artic, to the adorable toddler that you are with an amazing curiousity and zest to learn. You have an amazing vocabulary and you enjoy going through a "roll call" and naming everyone in the room multiple times a day. When we are home you start pointing and naming, "Nana, Mama, Dada, Re-rah (Roxy), Ree Ree (Reo), Ray, Sasha, Wah-wah (Wilder)...I think it gives you a sense of security and pride to name everyone in the room as a way to remind yourself of the people that love you and love to lavish attention on you.
You have grown into such an amazing child. You run wildly, you dance often and you speak well. You love to ask "wasssah?" and point to things so that I can give you the term/name for it and help to expand your world.
You have welcomed your beautiful little brother with an overwhelming abundance of grace, positivity and love and I never doubted for a moment that you would see him as a fantastic addition to your life. He is 3 months old now and loves to stare at you while you play and dance and move thoroughout the room like a beautiful tornado. You bring a smile to his face hundreds of times a day. You love to lean on him and hug him and get in his face to kiss him...you also love to scream and startle him (silly girl!) but it is so clear to me that you love your brother and I am so happy for that. I hope that you grow up to be his closest friend so that you both can face the world with each other's strength and support.
I am so thankful to be able to enjoy each day with both of you. Now that I am no longer working things have been very different. No more daycare, it's just me and you and Wilder and I couldn't be more thankful for every day as your mom.
Being a mom to both of you is a more joyfilled, and pride-filled job than any I have ever worked before. I am SO proud of the little girl that you are. SO PROUD. You are this precious little mass of blonde hair, assertiveness, curiousity, love and energy. I am eager to watch you continue to grow and gain even stronger speaking skills so that we experience this big and crazy workld together.
Some of the words you use often:
ce-ro (cereal)
juice
no!
down Ray!
num-num
nigh-night
tee-tee (cookie)
ta-dee (taggy, your special lovey/blanket thing)
uppy (up)
Meema (Grandma W)
Boppa (Grandpa W)
Amy
ho-ho-eh-ya (Elmo's Christmas DVD)
I nee num-num (I'm hungry)
ice seem (ice cream)
pee-ya (pizza)
nana (banana)
appa (apple)
0h (orange food/color)
puh-pow (purple)
re (red)
white
booh (book)
These are just the words you use most often (off the top of my head). Your vocabulary goes well beyond these newer words. You are recognizing colors like orange, purple and white. You can count (1,2,3,8,9,10) and you can do your ABC's (a,b,c,d,e). You can CLIMB and do you ever! You love to climb the chair to access the computer desk. You love to climb on the furniture. You climb everywhere~ you love to go to playgroups and indoor playgrounds to run and play with balls and climb on play structures. You have been wonderful about allowing me to style your hair now, though you don't particularily enjoy it. You enjoy painting and using crayons. You grab pens that we leave out and color on every piece of paper you can find. You love to interact with the dogs (who have become your pseudo play friends) and you love to dump your toys out of the baskets.
You are growing up so fast, hopefully I can update this with the amazing things you learn and do as a way to keep record of your amazing life.
I love you so much Miss Lulu. You and your brother are such amazing and powerful forces in my life. You make me wish I could fix the world and give you a utopia to make your way within. You both offer me such joy and elation and I am so proud to be your mom and happy to have you both in my life. I feel ferocious amounts of love for you both~
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