My Adorable Wilder,
You are almost 7 months old! I cannot believe how big you are getting! Your 6 month doctor appointment had you at 28 inches long (90-95%), your weight at 20lbs & 4 oz (90%), and your head size...well, you take after your dad with 46.3 cm (97%)!
You are starting to show such a personality and you have learned to communicate your likes and dislikes quite well. You LOVE baby food...bananas in particular, though you enjoy pears, apples, carrots, squash and sweet potatos. You sort of like peas and green beans, some days more than others. You are starting to be more difficult to nurse as you like to turn away and look at any noise or sounds you hear so it takes quite a bit longer to get a smaller amount now. Plus, it is easier to take formula and breast milk from a bottle so you do that about half the time. I am adament on continuing to nurse you until at least a year old. People always ask how long I want to nurse for and when I tell them, they ask why I would want to nurse for so long. They think it would just be easier to give you formula, and it would, but they don't understand that it is for me just as much as it is for you. It goes well beyond the nutritional benefits-it is that bond with you that I love. I adore our time each day where we get to steal away and just focus on each other. I adore our family, but those few minutes, a few times a day are like meditation for me. You and I can stare into each other's eyes while you nurse and we can communicate our love for each other the way words can never express. It's my time to just focus on you. To love you, to think about you, to smile at you.,..it's wonderful. That time with you, in peace and calm, is precious to me.
I have been monitoring your, umm..."poo" situation often since you have very stubborn bowels and only tend to go once or twice a week. This leaves us with a crampy and very upset baby many nights..one that is inconsolable and my heart breaks for you when you are upset. I have tapered back the amount of cereal that I mix into your baby food now to avoid causing more constipation issues than we would already have. I know you are probably much older when you are reading this and thinking "why is she typing all these gross details?!?!" and the answer is that nothing about you is gross to me. I want you to know as much about your life as a child as possible and these are details that I will want to remember because I love everything about you.
You also REALLY dislike being in your car seat in the car after dark. Were unsure if it is the dark you are fearful of, or being strapped into the seat and not having as much visibility as you would during the day. Either way, you are fine in the dark when you can see one of us, so being in the house at night isn't an issue...but you cry and scream and sob the whole time we are in a car after dark. It is a heart wretching experience to drive you home at night and I find myself singing as loundly as possible in the hopes that you will hear me over your crying and feel more secure. So far, it hasn't worked but I will forever keep trying. Sometimes I even try to squeeze into the middle seat between you and Lulu's car seats so that I can hold your hand and soothe you-you love that but it is a really tight and uncomfortable fit for me and I am terrified that I am pushing on your car seats and loosening them, which is a safety issue so I won't be able to do that too often. I pray you grow out of this phase soon, I feel terrible hearing you cry and not being able to swoop you up into my arms to lavish kisses on you. As you mom, I want to be able to fix everything for you-your cries break my heart into a million pieces and I hate feeling powerless to help you.
You are starting to be a total stinker at night in general. Somehow you have decided to live like a rock star...you want to stay up until 4 am and sleep until noon each day which really doesn't work well for the rest of the family. Lately it has been impossible to get you to go to sleep at a decent hour and I find myself laying in bed with you as you sit up and watch TV while I snooze. You sit right between dad and I, in our bed, and zone out watching whatever boring show we can find and eventually your eyelids start to get heavy and you get sleepy:) This week I am going to start waking you up at 8am so that you are nice and tired in time for 2 planned nap times, and that way you will have your last nap of the day in the early afternoon and will hopefully be tired in time for a normal bed time. A mom's gotta do what a mom's gotta do.... this week commences "Operation Change Wilder's Sleep Schedule" and I am totally ready for whatever tantrums and crying jags you can offer me. I will meet them with love and patience and hope that it will all end up with you on a more human schedule. :)
You have started something new that is SO overwhelmingly adorable...everytime we try to take a picture of you and you see the little orange flash light go on, you give this huge beaming smile that I just love. It is a smile filled with pride and beauty and the understanding on your part that camera=smile=attention:) You love to pose for the camera and your wrinkled nose smile is one truely worth capturing forever! You have also found your voice! You love to sit on the floor with toys and just jibber jabber away...sometimes it even sounds like you are yelling. Dad and I call it "screlling" since it sounds like you are screaming and yelling at the same time. You don't screll with any particular sense of anger...you just sound like you are very passionate about whatever it is you happen to be saying. I hope to catch it on video because we lapse into fits of laughter whenever you do it. You have also started forming more sounds that are part of language development. You have started moving your lips and tongue in a way that has you making "dadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadadada" sounds. You haven't connected the sound to "dad" yet...but you are well on your way to developing your language skills and I am eager to hear all that you have to say when you can talk.
You still love to zip around wildly and with great athleticism in your walker. You have actually started to hold yourself up into a standing position quite well. Between your standing, strong balance skills and your expert use of the walker your dad and I are convinced that you will walk before you crawl. You run around in that walker...actually running...and I think that since you see Lulu and us walking around, that crawling has just never been an option you have considered as of yet. Either way, walk or crawl, you are getting stronger and more balanced and one of them is a skill that I think you will have soon enough.
I love you so much Wild. You are this beautiful (okay..handsome) all-American type boy. You are growing up so fast and everyday I must say to myself "I love him so much" a million times if not more. Even at your worst I love you. Even at my worst, I love you. I love our special bond and I can't wait to see what the future holds for you. I feel this overwhelming need to protect you from the world, so hopefully the future has you living with me and dad forever (and Lulu!) because I never want to part from you, even for a day. You and your sister have brough unimaginable happiness and love to my world and I am reminded of that love and happiness hundreds of times a day. Thank you.
mom
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